Thursday, August 4, 2011

the bad... (part 2 of 2)

so, if you read the other post, then you know that things have been going well. really well.
they continue to go that way, too. yet, in the midst of greatness, there will be attack. whether its the display of human depravity or the schemes of the devil or perhaps both, we were hit hard recently.

i went to the bank to withdraw money for the day then walked to another bank to pay a bill and then hopped in a tuk tuk with some of our team members to head off to Obunga. Dr. Sloan was doing a medical camp that day with the help of some of the students that are interested in pursuing careers in the medical profession. when we arrived, everything seemed to be going well. every was doing their job and manning their post. the waiting room was filling up. Dr. Emily and translator/assistant Lillian, were seeing dozens of patients. Mathews (Ndoto student studying to be a pharmacist) and Jane (local community health worker) were running the pharmacy and doing a mighty fine job. there were a few sick Ndoto students, and because there was a charge for the clinic, i reached for my wallet to pay the fee for them.

i put my hand in my purse and couldn't find it anywhere. like at home, i carry around a behemoth of a purse, full of stuff, so it didn't initially shock me. however, as i started to empty my purse, i realized it was gone. that was when PANIC swept over me. i called christi over to help me. we dumped out the contents of my purse on the floor and spread the news to the students to scour every corner of the church looking for the lost wallet. when it seemed that it was more than lost, christi and i jumped in a tuk tuk with Joshua (the driver) and one of our older students, Dennis. we backtracked and went to all the places we had stopped on our way to Obunga. at each stop, i began to freak out a little more. it can't be gone. it just can't be. it has bank cards, receipts, important papers, and most of all A LOT OF CASH in it. after we had stopped at every place i had been that morning, it became clear that is was gone and that it had been stolen.

i was crushed. how could this have happened? i have walked these streets by myself for years without any trouble. i'm careful. i'm aware. i am busy, and particularly so when the team is here, but could i really have been so preoccupied that i wouldn't have felt someone taking something out of my bag. at moments like this, a wave of helplessness, anger and frustration crashes over me. there was nothing any of us could do. it was gone.

what happened next stunned me. the reaction of our driver and the ndoto students was one of deep sorrow. they were distraught. they kept asking questions like, "how could someone have stolen money that helps poor students go to school?" "why would someone do that even before Ndoto has reached its full potential? we haven't even finished our strategic plan yet" "what is wrong with us Kenyans?" i quickly found that my role was shifting...instead of being the angry, inconsolable victim, i was called upon to be the comforter. the realization that this shift was going on spurred something in me to call upon the name of the Lord (we had been praying and praying at each step along the way) and speak truth to these young people, so that at the end the name of the Lord will be praised.

Christi and i shared with them that God is at work and things are going well, that we should expect attacks from Satan, who is always looking to thwart the plan of God and His children. we also reminded them (and ourselves) that all money, resource, time, and gifts belong to the Lord, and so if someone wants to steal from God then let them do that at their own peril. we also shared with them as they were in tears that "If God is for us, who can be against us?" we also encouraged them to struggle with this situation, but in the end to hand it over and let the King deal with it. i shared with them that God has given them power. power to change their individual lives. power to change the face and the soul of their community. power to help people. power to use what they've been given for good. yet, if they are so discouraged that they give up (a couple of university students had big final exams to take that day), then they are relinquishing that power, which is exactly what the devil would want them to do.

their responses have been inspiring. the students have decided that we need to pray more. the students have also decided that they are going to pray more for me, so that despite the attacks i don't give up. (tears!) they have also decided to continue their efforts with more fervor and commitment than before. they keep coming up with new ideas for how to help each other and help me in order to make sure things like this don't happen anymore. we got to address the issue of fear as well. we got to remind them that we will not walk in fear, and we will not buckle under the pressure of the enemy. whew! it was such a powerful teaching time.

here are a couple of the most important takeaways from this experience for me:

1. they were upset b/c Ndoto money was stolen. this means their money was stolen. this isn't allison's money or allison's problem. this was OUR money and OUR problem. that kind of response is a clear sign that we are moving in the right direction. they are owning the project and its success. anything that is an affront to what God is calling them to do offends them. this is how it should be.

2. God, in His mercy, used this experience as a profound teaching time for us all. we all learned (or were reminded) of the truth that He is God, He is Sovereign, and He is in Control. He gives and He takes away. Our hope and faith are in Him!

3. The unity that comes when a group unites after hardship can strengthen their bonds and their resolve making them unstoppable. I believe with all my heart that is what is happening here.

The reality is that we were hit hard when this happened. I lost about $100 of my personal money, but the bigger concern is that Ndoto lost about $700. For those who question why I would walk around with that much cash, let me reassure you that it is the way that things are done here, and I have been doing it for years without a problem. We deal in a 100% cash system, which means no credit cards and no debit cards. When you have a team doing as much as we do with as many people as we have, we can spend that amount of money in a day or two. In fact, I had already given out about $700 that day to other team members to carry in order to lighten my load. Now, we are putting the pieces back together. I called and canceled both debit cards (mine and Ndotos) and they are sending new ones ASAP (within the next 3-5 days). I'm glad that the team is here, because one team member has an Ndoto debit card. Otherwise, we would be without access to money.

we ask first and foremost that you join us in praying for God's provision, both immediately as we try to recover and in the long term as we ask the Lord to provide that which was stolen. He knows what we need, and this is an incredible opportunity for us to trust Him as He increases our faith. this is also a stretching experience but a crucial one in terms of learning and growing for our students. please pray that the Lord uses this to draw the students closer to Him.

second, we ask you to prayerfully consider helping to replenish that which was lost. you can mail a check to: 2526 Rosebud Court, Carrollton, TX 75006 or you can donate online at our website: www.ndoto.org

third, we ask that you share Ndoto's story with your friends and family that they, too, can be involved in what God is doing in Obunga, Kisumu, Kenya!

thank you, dear friends, for praying for us, partnering with us, and standing with us during this time!


the good... (part 1)

dearest family & friends,

i don't even know where to begin. we (ndoto) have been so deeply blessed. God has been gracious to us and has provided for our needs. he has also brought one of the greatest groups we have ever had. everyone gets along. everyone serves. no drama. no complaining. they just do it. and they do it well. :) the primary school retreat was this past monday and tuesday and couldn't have gone any better. we had 26 young ones in grades 1 - 8 and ranging in age from 6 to 15. our team shared a verse from 1 John talking about the love that God has lavished on us calling us his sons and daughters. this is SO important for them to hear for a couple of reasons.

#1 they need to be reminded (as we all do) that God loves us abundantly (especially when so
few others do)
#2 in the absence of an earthly father, the love and care of the Heavenly Father become all that
much more impactful
#3 if God loves us all as sons and daughters then that means that we are brothers and sisters
which hopefully for each of them creates a sense of family

i believe God gave me the words to speak to them about why all of this is important. i also believe God gave me what i needed to talk to them about how love means that we teach them what is right and encourage them when they do it but also correct them when do something wrong. i explained that it is our job to raise them to be independent, hard-working, respectful and kind adults that serve God and others. as a result, this means that we will discipline them, but throughout it all, we love them so much and are so proud of them. we encouraged them to say "i'm sorry" and to help each other and to see Ndoto as family. two young ladies actually stood up in front of everyone and apologized for things they had done. i started to cry. :) i couldn't be more proud of them. i also realized that i am getting a crash-course in parenting.

on the second day, the team shared the story of Noah with them. we did a skit, plenty of songs, loads of cool crafts, and soccer matches that had everyone (including our tuk tuk drivers) sweating profusely! then, we took them to Impala Park, which is their equivalent of a local zoo, only at this zoo, zebras, impalas, and monkeys run around freely. there are also cages of ostriches, lions, cheetahs, hyenas, and a leopard. the park also has one of the nicest shores and views of Lake Victoria. because most of the kids had never been here before, it was incredible to get to watch their reactions as they took it all in. such unadulterated excitement. every animal was so cool. when a monkey or a zebra would run by, they would all take off after it just to catch a glimpse of what they see in their school books. very few of the students have ever been swimming before, so the chance to put their toes in Lake Victoria thrilled some and frightened others. eventually, though, they all did it. they were awe-struck. they didn't know what a lake was and the little ones have never seen it, even though they live less than 2 miles away from it. my favorite comment came from Rida, one of our first graders, who said, "it's like big rain!" i smiled and laughed so much during these days, that my face hurt.

i was also privy to witness the worship of one of our university students, Michael. before most everyone got there when it was just Michael, me and a few kids, he stepped out some rocks and began to sing. As the waves crashed against the rocks, he stretched out his arms and began to sing louder. one of our team members walked up then and asked her if she could hear what he was seeing. she nodded her head and smiled. Michael was singing, "How Great Is Our God," one of both of our favorite songs. he said he was overcome by the beauty of God's creation as he looked out on the lake and that God had blessed this group to grow up near this reminder of the power, generosity, and creativity of a mighty God.

i continue to say it, but this is my favorite season of working in Kenya ever. we are blessed beyond measure to witness the fruits of our labor (only because of HIS great work!) and the sowing of seeds planting long ago. despite the struggles, i continue to rejoice in the Lord's work around me and continue to thank Him for not giving up on all of us. i also couldn't be any more proud of our students. everyday, they are up against struggles and odds that most of us can't fathom yet they excel in school, care about each other, listen to what they're told, and say things (that only children can say) that are profound and make me laugh. i know it won't be like this forever, and that there are indeed seasons. yet, i want to revel in this time....really soak it in...for it is sweet.

these are lyrics to an old worship song that i love. they continue to minister to me every morning when i listen to them: "i will trust in you, my God! there is a fountain who is the king. victorious warrior and Lord of everything. my rock. my shelter. my very own. blessed Redeemer who reigns upon the throne."